tophatboy

 My alarm clock blared. I threw it across the room and rolled to face the wall, covering my ears with a pillow. I didn't want to get up yet. The sun wasn't even up; it couldn't be six thirty. With a groan, I rolled to get a look at the alarm clock, which was now laying on top of my clothes hamper. It said seven thirty-two. I yelled and bolted out of bed, then fell back down, shocked by the freezing temperature of my room. Sleeping naked was not a good thing. . . My cell phone rang and I ran to get it. Nicole was going to be so mad at me. . . I answered it, and, sure enough, it was her. "Render, where are you at?" She growled. "It's your fi

In a dark room~ A little girl sleeps~ Just down the hall~ Her older sister weeps~ A knife cuts deep~ As all people know~ Crimson is beautiful~ She feels so low~ Two days later~ A funeral is held~ Fake people cry~ No one understands~ What is wrong, dears?~ For whom now do you cry?~ Love, keep silent, still~ Wait until they leave~ Then we will dance.

You've taught me so many things, About the world around me, And about myself. I used to be broken, Just stumbling to keep up with everyone else. But now you promise to carry me. The masses have no control over me now. And I thank you because of that. I'm no longer an emotion doll, For others to play with. I'm me. And I understand now. But after everything you've done for me, I can't help but wonder... Have I done anything of that magnitude for you? No, I haven't. ...That eats at me. I've done nothing to help you in return. And I'm sorry. People used to call me selfish. Maybe they were right.

I watch you with cold eyes, Laughing silently at your pain. You're cruel, and unkind. You are barely sane. I know you try your best To keep me content and calm. But as hard as you try, You are not a balm. I wish you a happy life, To change the way you are. Take a chance, And find your star. Leave me alone. Bother someone who cares. I'm tired of you. I'm ripping from your snares. Try to stop me.

I gave my heart and soul to you. Trusted you with my love. Hated you for breaking me. Held you when you cried. Now I'm lost and blind, And need you to help me find my way. But look where you are now- Five hundred miles away. All I needed was a hand, To help pull me up. All I wanted was understanding. I've stayed silent and still, Waiting for you to help. I need you to help me want to stay. But where are you now? Five hundred miles away. Fractures heal and love is lost. Broken hearts callus over, Forgetting how to feel. People walk through you, Never asking for directions to your heart. So now here I lay- Nowhere else but